Well, I'm trying to break out of a depression. I just haven't felt like doing much lately. Today it's sunny and I'm not feeling sick, I think the flu is finally done with me.
Sue decorated the table with very colorful balloons on Wednesday while I was at dialysis. It was a beautiful, festive sight to come home to. It was such a nice touch and a great surprise.
I think I got depressed later, after realizing how much we used to be able to do and now how I've limited us. I miss being able to go walking in the mountains or go along with Sue on some of her trips. Often she would take days off after a meeting and we would visit sights near by. All that's out right now. No more trips to the beach, no surf fishing. I guess it's so hard because I used to be so active and I have been reduced to this.
I keep hoping things will improve but, I know things will never be the same or close to what they were. I try to adapt but, it's getting harder with each new setback. I so much want Sue to be happy and have a good time in life. I should have done something about this a long time ago.
The photos are of birds at the feeder I got as a birthday gift from my parents. It is very busy in the mid morning and around dinner time.